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In Naughty Secrets I devote a section to survey answers about first times. Here are a few new ones including a guy's first masturbation.

Updated 11/08 [M 69] I’m a sixty-nine year old male and I still remember my first sexual experience like it was yesterday, although it happened when I was not quite nineteen years old. I was raised a strict Baptist and when I was very young I was told that touching myself down there was a sure way to end up in hell! I was told that the only proper sex was between a man and a woman. And I really believed it! So the only sex I had experience I had up until my eighteenth year was in the form of wet dreams. But all that was to soon change, after a fifty hour plus bus ride I arrived in the border town of El Paso Texas.
Feeling the need of a bath I asked at a restaurant if they knew of a place where I could get a shower and was directed to a combination steam bath and massage just up the street a few blocks away. I was met at the Steam and Massage place by a sixty-five year old lady and I asked if I could get a shower there and how much would it cost me. The lady said that I could and it would cost fifty cents, but she recommended a steam bath and a shower for three dollars. She said it was a wonderful way to relax. I said I had never had a steam bath and while I was trying to make up my mind she said she would give me a steam bath and shower for nothing since it would be my first time.
She led me to the steam room and told me to get undressed and get in the cylindrical shaped steam bath. She left the room and I hurriedly complied with her instructions and pulled the lid down. When she returned and turned on the steam she said it would take about twenty or thirty minutes. She tucked a towel around my neck to keep the steam in and said that she would be back when it was time to get out. She returned in about fifteen minutes with a wet wash cloth and wiped my forehead and asked how I liked it. I said it was nice and relaxing like she said and after my long bus ride I was afraid I would fall asleep. She said don’t worry about falling asleep because she would arouse me when it was time to get out.
I guess I did fall asleep because the next thing I was aware of was her opening the lid on the steam bath. She just stood there gazing down at me. I wondered when she would move so I could get out. And then she asked" YOU WANT RELIEF!" I answered, "HAH." She bent closer and repeated, YOU WANT RELIEF!" Again I answered, "HAH."
At this point she could tell by my answers and the bewildered look on my face that she would have to be more explicit. So as she asked for the third time, "YOU WANT RELIEF " she reached over and grasped my flaccid manhood. Between her questions and her actions even this country boy finally understood and I answered, "YA YA." Within seconds I was rock hard and after three or four strokes I sent a couple of globes of semen over my head and the rest landing on my face and chest. As she led me down the hall to the shower she asked if this was my first time and I admitted that it was and told her what my preacher had told us about going to hell. She said that was an awful thing to tell a young boy and that she didn’t think there was any thing wrong with masturbation. But if she had known I had never done it before she would never have asked me if I wanted relief.
I responded that she was a woman and I was a man so what just happened was ok and that I had never felt anything so good in my life. She said if that was the way I felt she would continue to pleasure that way if I ever come to her place again. When I stepped out of the shower she was there with a warn towel and toweled me dry. As she toweled my genital area my peter was throbbing again and she looked at me and winked and I nodded within a minute or so I climaxed again. I dressed and as I was leaving she asked if I would be back again this week. This being a Monday I answered, "I certainly hope so." I stopped in again that night before she closed and twice a day for the rest of the week.
After eleven steam baths I arrived on Saturday evening and she had a lady in the steam bath and she said, "You known sonny you don’t have to take a steam bath every time you could have a massage instead. So began my addiction to massage which was even better and the price was the same. She would relax me before the massage and than again at the end of the massage. Life was very good needless to say.

Updated 3/08 [M 60s] I would like to tell about the first time I ever had a woman "go down on me". It was with a girlfriend I was living with while stationed overseas when I was 26 years old. I and this girl had lots of straight sexual intercourse in lots of different positions and also quite a few hand jobs. But, on this one evening, we had been through some rough times thanks to me falling for this young waitress back on base. I finally ended this after wising up and realizing what I already had was perfect for me and what I really wanted. I went to our house and asked her to forgive me which she did. At the time, I had gone without anything (sexual) for several weeks and was sure in need. I couldn't wait for us to finally hit the sack. We did and started kissing on each other (foreplay), But, she suddenly stopped, rolled over me to the floor and bent over me kissing my neck, chest, belly, etc. I was laying on my back this whole time and was already naked. When she got to my penis, as always, I was already hard.
She put her thumb and forefinger around the base making it stand straight up. She kissed it working her way down and then back up again. It felt wonderful. Then, she did it. She opened her lips and slipped my penis into her mouth. I was laying there gasping for breath it felt so good. It didn't take much of this for my orgasm to start its wonderful feelings through me and I was making my usual pre orgasm sounds and moving my hips up and down from the feelings going through me. I never dreamed a girl would let me ejaculate in her mouth but I was about to and of course she knew it was coming. It then hit and she stayed down letting me shoot off into her mouth. What a feeling that was! Then, she really gave me a shock. When I was through cumming, she raised up looking me straight in the eyes making sure I saw as she swallowed. She had swallowed my cum! She was letting me know just how much she loved me and the pleasures she could give me that she hadn't up till then. Of course, this girlfriend had come from the bars there which were known as bar girls which also meant prostitute so she had given no telling how many of these things to no telling how many different men before I came along. She sure knew what she was doing and it sure felt great and she knew it would. In the end, this was not only my first blow job but by far also my best.
She was the only woman I ever had that would perform this and then actually swallow my cum. Others I've had would always spit it out.

Updated 7/07 [M] I remember my first time with a woman back in the States. I "broke in" overseas and was in my mid twenties and had never had sex here in the States. I was home on leave and after having been living with a girl overseas and having sex with her every day I was sure beginning to "hurt" for some pussy after going without any for around two weeks. One evening I ended up driving through this particular side of town and I couldn't help but notice the women on the street I was on. It was looking pretty obvious that they were "ladies of the night" working their trade. And, part of this was in the way they were dressed. They were of course wanting to attract "Johns" and what better way to do this then to show off a lot of female flesh. After going without for that two week period I was sure hurting to get my hands on some of that flesh and of course get my penis in it. I hurried to a drug store and picked up some condoms and headed back. It didn't take me long to spot this woman in a tight black skirt and did she ever look good. She was a Latin woman. I made the block and picked her up. We went to her house and she took off her skirt and panties and I took off my pants and shorts. She laid on the bed and I sat next to her just wanting to feel her up a minute running my hand over her legs and butt. I then rolled on a condom and got between her legs. She lined me up and I slid in easily all the way. I then wrapped my hand around running them along her thighs and feeling her butt as I went in and out of her pussy. I didn't last but maybe half a minute before climaxing in her. When I pulled out and took off the condom the whole end of the condom was full of semen. It was obvious I really needed that. She was my first stateside woman I ever had sex with but certainly wasn't my last. When my leave was over I ended up going back to the same overseas base and to the same native girlfriend. With her I sure didn't need the services of a "working girl". But, I sure needed them when on those leaves back home back then.

Updated 5/07 [M 70s] My wife and I grew up in strict Catholic homes and we were both virgins when we were married. We had sexual intercourse for the first time on our wedding night in 1955. I was so excited and my erection was actually hurting. We boys called that 'blue balls' when this occurred. I had a hard time getting my penis into her vagina and it caused her some pain as the hymen was broken. There was a small amount of blood on her negligee. I am not that large measuring 6.5" in length and 6.5" in circumference. I was too excited and did not have an orgasm that night. My wife said that the pain was not that great and glad I was the one that had taken her virginity and she mine.
The next day she started having her period and we did not have sex for 3 or 4 days. When we tried again it was still a problem to get my penis inside her tight vagina. It would take several minutes to get her vagina to relax and open up to accept my erect organ. When I did get it inside we would go into the normal in and out motions and she easily had an orgasm. This was her first orgasm from a male and she loved the experience. I again was too excited and could not ejaclate. We kept trying night after night for some time without success.
We started going to our local church every night praying for a solution to my problem. We both wanted kids and knew this had to work. I had started masturbating when I was 12 so I knew the system worked. Masturbation was considered a sin when I was growing up and I had to confess it many times to a priest before I was married.
About three weeks later and a week before her next period I was finally able to climax inside of her vagina. What a feeling that was and far out did the use of the hand. Our usual routine became that I would allow her to come to a climax and then join her on her second one. I would then continue on and allow her to have a third and sometimes a fourth We have three children and there were three miscarriages throughout our 50 some years of marriage.

[M 76] My first time was way back in 1953. It occurred on my honeymoon and in those far off days you didn't do it until you were married. Consequently neither my wife or I ( we were both 22 years of age at the time) knew exactly where to put what. It was in the dark and putting a condom on was difficult enough. Then I fumbled about placing my throbbing cock in the right area but not hitting the right spot. Unfortunately I got too excited and filled my condom before getting anywhere near her pussy. During that first night I tried three times and failed to enter her on each occasion. I don't usually admit to this but it took me three weeks before I actually took her virginity. I am now 76 years of age and think back to those innocent days.

Updated 10/06 [M] In my and what would end up to be my wife's case our first sexual act occurred in the little living room of her apartment. I was 28 at the time and she was 24. We had been dating and going together for a couple of months at the time. On the evening things happened we were setting on the sofa watching TV and talking. We eventually went to kissing. Soon we were laying on the narrow seat of the sofa face to face on our sides kissing passionately. As one can imagine I was by now hard as a rock and as close as we were she could feel it pressing against her. I felt her hand move between us reaching for my penis and then rubbing it thru my pants. With this I reached down pulling up her dress to get access to her legs. I went to feeling the soft flesh of her thighs and the cheeks of her ass and getting more and more aroused from this. She then went to undoing my pants and I raised my hips and helped her. She next reached thru the leg opening of her panties and moved the center over to uncover her pussy.
She next guided my hard penis to the opening to her vagina. She was so aroused and wet down there. My big hard penis slid right in all the way. At the time it had been so long since I had my hands on any female flesh much less the feel of being inside a woman's pussy that I remember lasting less than half a minute. My right hand was behind her hip pulling her to me and I was pushing toward her when I ejaculated deep inside of her. I of course let out some groans and grunts of pleasure and if a woman can feel anything inside her vagina when a man turns lose his semen I have no idea but if they do there is no doubt she felt this one. My orgasm was strong and long lasting and I know she received a pretty large amount of semen. I would sure like to hear from the lady readers if they do feel anything when this happens. Always wondered about this. I can feel contractions occurring in women I've been in when they are in the throngs of orgasm. Hope to hear from some of you out there with your input.

[M] With me the first time noticing the opposite sex was while in the seventh grade and the first thing that I took note of were girl's legs. They became a thing of pure beauty about this time and I got where I loved to see them. Seeing them would also bring about that feeling inside that I later learned was sexual arousal. That urge to feel soft female flesh was hitting me at this time and it was more than obvious that those things were some kind of soft to the touch. Just seeing the giggles in there thighs was a big turn on and a sign of just how soft they were. PE was always my favorite "class" at school as the girls would be out in there shorts. Of course there were the stand outs among them. The girls with the more developed legs. To this day I remember Kate and Donnie the most. They both had beautiful full thighs and by eighth grade I'd have to control myself to not look too much as I'd get erections if I did. This would had sure been quite embarrassing in my gym shorts.
In high school I'd love to be right up front at the pep rallies so I could see the cheerleaders real close. They be up on a stage and what a view! Again I'd have the erection problem if I weren't real careful. Needless to say I'd get home from school and would have the greatest masturbation sessions thinking about these legs.
Often wonder if these young girls know just how much there wearing there shorts and short skirts affects the boys. Hoping for some replies on this.
As I've already wrote in first time I was a late bloomer and it wasn't until I was in my early twenties that I finally got my first feel of a woman's thighs. It was with a Filipina Woman and her thighs were if anything even more softer under my hand than in my wildest dreams. She was rubbing her hand on my very erect penis through my pants at the time and I lasted around ten seconds once I felt her thighs when I filled my pants with the most semen I've ever turned loose.

Updated 9/06 [M-63] Remembering back to my first times referring to my first hand job and first having sex as they involved the same girl one night apart. I was a late bloomer when it comes to my first experiences concerning sex. I was 22 years old at the time stationed in the Philippine Islands on a large air base. Needless to say, over there getting a girl to have sex with was just a matter of going to one of the many bars and paying her a very reasonable amount for her services.
But, due to my up bringing and such, I wouldn't do this. I had been there for months when I did meet a Pilipino girl on base who was a waitress. We ended up literally dating for awhile. We finally ended up in her little up stairs apartment where we'd cook meals and just enjoy each other's company. On one Thursday night we ended up setting on her bed kissing and ended up laying down and continuing our making out. I continued to be the perfect gentleman as always and she finally just couldn't take it any more and made the next move. Needless to say, my penis was rock hard already as kissing is fore play as we all know. Next thing I knew I felt her hand rubbing my erect penis through my slacks. This was the first time any girl had ever touched me there.
With this, I finally made my move and did what I had only dreamed about since I was in the seventh grade. She was in a dress and I ran my hand under her dress and for the first time got to feel a girl's legs. The feel was even more wonderful than in my wildest dreams. I moved to her inner thighs and thought I was in heaven. You now put two and two together. I lived in an open bay barracks, open stalls and showers etc. Absolutely no privacy at all so it had been months since I'd last had an orgasm. Yes: it happened in just seconds. Best way to describe it was a literal cum explosion occurred in my slacks. No telling how much was ejaculated.
My girlfriend brought her hand up and stuck it down my pants from the waist. She immediately withdrew it as she felt the cum and found her hand all covered with it. She got up to wipe herself off and I got up to drop my pants and clean myself off. I had to get back to the base as we had a curfew at that time. As luck would have it, we had a weekend off that weekend and I got a weekend pass. That Friday night when she and I went to bed for the night needless to say we started kissing and making out. After awhile I mounted her. It took her to guide me into her pussy as I was new at this. Again: probably needless to say, I went in around half way and sure enough that was it.
I again exploded but this time inside of her. It just felt so damn good I couldn't help it and I was so horny. An hour or so later we tried it again and this went on all night. Each time I lasted a little longer and longer. It was wonderful! How she kept from getting pregnant from all the semen she had pumped into her that night and that whole weekend I'll never know. Obvious it wasn't her time of month. These two night are nights a man never forgets. My first hand job and first pussy. I should also add also my first leg.

[M] I just read an entry in the First Time category from a 23 year old male writing about the first time for him. Reading it, I was amazed at what I saw. He mentioned that the woman he was with had to take his male organ in her hand and stimulate it with her hands to get him erect. I'm so thankful that I'm not at all like this. With me, just the earliest thought while with a woman that we were going to engage in sexual activity with her would bring on an instant and immediate erection. I have always been very excitable when it comes to sexual activity and as I once noted have even become so excited a couple of times that I actually ejaculated early during foreplay by just the feel of soft female flesh. In these cases it was the fantastic softness of there inner thighs that got me. Yes; 63 now and still get fully erect when I know things are about to happen.

Updated 3/06 [M 22] My first time came when I was 20. I met a girl at college that was a foreign exchange student from China and she didn't have a lot of friends. I hung out with her a lot and the first time I went to her apartment she grabbed me right away and started kissing me. I was really afraid and didn't want to go on so I left. About a week later I found her alone in the library and took her to my place. I still didn't know if I wanted to do it with her but when she started disrobing and pulling me, I had to have it. She got on top because I didn't know what I was doing. She slowly went down, with me inside of her. I came very soon and was embarrassed. I had looked at a lot of porn beforehand though so I knew some things I wanted to try like getting her from behind. Pretty soon I was the one demanding all the sex but she was happy to give it.

[M] I had my first oral experience with another man on a beach in California. At first I felt ashamed and could not believe that I had done it. It was about six months latter that I had my second experience and I think it made me appreciate it more and I looked forward to the third time. I have since become very active with this which I now consider it my pleasurable hobby. I have a strong following and it grows by word of mouth. (No pun intended) I do not develop any formal relationships but I do have several favorites. I can't begin to tell you how I appreciate the time they take in allowing me to enjoy them and the trust they have in me.

Updated 1/06 [M] Growing up I had absolutely no sex education, other than what I got from kids my own age (and older) I came from a large family, but my best friend was a neighbor 6 mos younger who was an only child. Roy's dad was very open with him about sex and I heard about it mostly second hand from Roy. Roy also had access to girly magazines, he had an uncle who used to pass his along to him. These weren't Playboy, they were really hard core, so they showed everything. I'm sure Roy's parents knew he had the mags, but unlike my parents they allowed it. My first knowledge came from those mags and my first sexual experience was joint masturbation with Roy, that is, we would do it in each other's presence, and graduated to doing each other. I seldom reached orgasm by Roy, he just didn't have the technique to get me off, but either he was easier or my technique was better as I could always get him off. When we discovered masturbation, almost every day, we'd get together and go to his garage where his dad had made him a 'clubhouse' and masturbate either together or each other.
Among our peer group there was such a stigma against 'queers'. We never tried mouth/penis contact. There were two kids our age who were overtly gay. Interestingly, they apparently didn't like each other, rather they both tried to seduce straight guys. One of them made a pass at me once, only I was too naive to realize it at first. One of my hobbies was stamp collecting and he told me he had some really rare stamps, so I met him at his house to see them. His dad was a Dr. and his mom managed the office; they never got home until late, so we had the house to ourselves. We went to his room and he immediately excused himself and went to the bathroom. When he came out he had taken off his pants and had his erect penis sticking out from under his shirt. I was at his desk looking at stamps, and he walked right up to where I was sitting before I saw what he was showing, then there it was sticking right in my face. He said, "Hold this and let me hold yours". and then there was absolutely no doubt in my mind. I don't think I really minded, because Roy and I had been doing it to each other for a year, but the fear that I'd be branded homo scared the dickens out of me, so I cleared out. Roy and I did everything else together, and were it not for the prejudice, I think we would have blown each other.

Updated 12/05 [M] I recently wrote you about the first time I masturbated so I thought why not follow up with a letter about the first time I had sex. I'm sure you are aware that this is one event in your life that you do not forget and I can still see it in my mind like, it was yesterday.
We were both virgins. My girl friend, who is my wife of 32 years, called me at home to inform me that her parents had gone out for the day and would I like to come over to visit. Never wanting to pass up an opportunity to be with her I hopped on my trusty steed (bike) and beat feet over there. When I got to her house she greeted me with a smile and a kiss and took me into her room.
As teenagers we did the usual teenager in love stuff; kissing, petting, touchy feely, but never had sex. That day I would soon find out was going to be different. When we got to her room she told me that she had just finished her period and wanted to have sex with me. Those words sent a chill down my spine that went straight to my penis. (Hey boss .. let me out! It's cramped in here!) She unzipped my pants, took my hard-on in her hands and gave me a big kiss. She went around her bed, took off her sun dress, bra and panties, climbed on the bed, knelt there, had me undress and kneel in front of her.
Back in the "old" days a teenager could not by condoms. They were kept in the pharmacy behind the counter guarded like Fort Knox. We figured that since she had just had her period it would be safe. My heart and mind were racing at light speed when she turned around on her hands and knees to offer herself to me "doggie style". I got behind her, placed my hands on her hips and inched myself closer to her pussy. I reached down to my dick which never felt so hard before and placed it against her pussy lips. Boys can be clumsy and I was no exception at this point. She reached between her legs and guided me to the correct spot and asked me to put it in slowly. I watched in amazement and as the head started to push into my girlfriend's pussy. Having only masturbated up until this point, the feeling during those sessions paled in comparison to what I was having now.
I was hypnotized going into her pussy and when it was all the way in I stayed there for a long while swimming in the luxurious sensations. My girl friend wiggled her hips and pushed up against me. I was in heaven! On the backstroke I watched her pussy sort of reach out over my dick like it didn't want to let go. When I got the head back out my foreskin snapped back (HEY!! where'd that warm place go?) so I pushed back in. I had my hands on my girlfriend's hips looking at her ass and watching myself moving in and out of her. Each stroke the foreskin would be pulled forward toward the head, then it would be stretched back down the shaft.
We didn't rush anything. I could tell I was getting ready to cum and this time it was feeling like nothing I had ever felt before. (DUH!) When I started to orgasm my legs felt weak, I started to shake a little, my dick felt like it was bursting at the seams. Each time I pulled back some sperm dripped out of her pussy. We stayed together until my erection subsided and slid out, limp and wet.
We changed the sheets to destroy the "evidence".
As I stated earlier we have been married for 32 years, however I can still see the action in that bedroom. The smells, decor, the sight of my girlfriends body and the way my dick moved in and out of her. (Better than VHS, TIVO, DVD)

[M 55] It was thirty years ago. At the time I was dating an 18 year old going on 26 if you know what I mean. Anyway one Sunday after dating for about a month, she and I were alone in my parent's house. Although this is somewhat material stuff it was important on its effect on me. She was wearing a pair of tight blue jeans a white halter top, knee-highs and 4" classic high heels. She noticed a couple of old photo albums my parents had and she wanted to look at them. As soon as we got on the couch she kicked off her high heels and I and curled her legs and feet up next to me. While we came to a section of photos of me as a young child she stated, " Aww!! weren't you so cute, baby boy. She then gave me a deep kiss. Only with every picture she saw of me she and I went thru the same interaction again and again. I had a throbbing hard on and she knew it.
She made a move for my zipper and pulled out my cock. While all of this was happening she continued to kiss me. She was such a wonderful kisser and smoocher. She completely controlled the situation as she pumped me and kissed me. Only now I saw out of the corner of my eye that her nylon covered feet were on top of the coffee table and her toes were wiggling and curling as she also rubbed the sole of one foot onto the instep of the other and vice versa. Every time she laid a kiss on me she would release a sexy little moan as our lips locked. I was loving this and she knew it.
She said, "You like to be kissed while I play with you ha?", and also "Oh wow it's throbbing'. I was enjoying the kissing as much as the hand job. Good Lord! what a dominatrix she was. She finally got into a kneeling position on the couch and really cranked the heat up! I was going out of my mind.
Finally I told her I was going to cum and when I did she slowly lowered her head down to me and gave me this deep luscious kiss while my sperm came ejaculating out all over both of us. She had such a great lock up on my lips that the screaming and pleasureable moaning I was doing could barely be heard.
Anyway I never did get this vivid picture of her stocking covered bare feet out of my head along with all of their motions. I realized I now had a foot fetish. For the remainder of all my dating encounters the only time I was interested in getting a hand job from a female was if she had a pair of panty hose stockings or knee-highs on along with a pair of nice high heels. If by the time we got back to my place or hers and she kicked off her heels and was ready to start kissing me I then found I wanted a hand job, but the kissing had to be part of the package.
I had dozens of these experiences that ended in ejaculating climaxes and not once did a girl friend ever complain about the procedure.

Updated 11/05 [M] This is a true store and took place about 1967. I first learned about masturbation when I was about 13 years old. Being raised in a Catholic environment and going to Catholic schools where nuns had absolute power over your life, no questions asked, sex or anything remotely resembling it was never discussed. In fact it was a sin to explore pleasures of the body.
My cousin and his family had come for a visit one summer and were staying in our house. One day when the parents were gone he asked me if I wanted to watch him make his "gun" shoot. I had no idea what he was talking about but curiosity got the best of me. He told to get a flashlight and come into the closet with him. I did and when the door was closed he took down his pants and sat down on the floor. I had never seen another person's penis before and I asked him what he was going to do. He told me " I'm going to rub it and make white stuff come out of it."
I sat there watching him rub his penis, it got hard, but he kept rubbing on it. He told me how good it felt to do this and I should do it too. I was too scared to even think about it. I don't know how long it took but he told me that it was about to "shoot". Sure enough white stuff came flying out of his penis and he kept rubbing on it. After it was over he told me I was a chicken not to try it.
Skipping forward... I used to sleep in the covered patio during the summer every once and a while since we didn't have air-conditioning. One night I thought about what my cousin had showed me and got up the nerve to try it. It was late and everyone was asleep so I wasn't scared about getting caught. I was nervous for sure! I pulled down my underwear and sat up like I had seen my cousin. I did not understand why my penis was already hard before I got my underwear down. I listened to make sure no one was up in the house and I put my fingers over the top of my penis like my cousin had done in the closet. I went up and down like I had seen and sure enough I had a strong feeling of pleasure. My cousin told me that he went slow because it felt good longer before he shot so I went slow too. I had never experienced anything that gave me such a wonderful sensation and kept concentrating on the feeling in my penis. As I kept masturbating the feeling in my penis kept growing, fading, then growing again making my penis feel like it was expanding. I kept rubbing until the sensation came in one long cycle. I didn't know what was happening and I got scared and took my hand off my penis. The feeling went away and nothing happened.
For the next couple of days I tried to figure out what had happened and if I should try and keep going next time I did it.
The next time I made sure that everyone was asleep and tired again. This time when I had the "feelings" I promised to keep going to see what would happen. Those feelings I had the last time came back and I made myself keep going... it was wonderful but nothing came out after it was all over.
This experience was over 38 years ago and now I'm 51 and masturbate regurlarly (I got over the Nun influence). Every once in a while I masturbate in front of my wife when she says she doesn't want to have sex hoping it will get here in the mood. I just lay back and enjoy!

Updated 9/05 [M] While many topics are aired one this excellent site, accounts of initial sexual and masturbatory experiences seem to be scarce. I have always enjoyed masturbating and do so several times a week in addition to regular sex with my lovely wife. I have always had a positive attitude toward all aspects of sex and believe that positive early experiences account for much of this.
I reached my teens in the 60's. Despite the myths about that time, whilst things were opening up rapidly, it was still a pretty repressed and repressive era! Girls still hung on to their virginity, pregnancy was a crippling fear and sex was shrouded in mystery and ignorance.
I went to an all-boys secondary school and had a religious background so I could have ended pretty screwed up. But that was not the case largely because I tended not to talk about sex with other boys so I didn't pick up stupid and distorted ideas. In addition, I was a fairly solitary child and very bookish so I picked up a lot of good factual insight at the library.
I had my first successful masturbation and orgasm when I was 13. A glorious powerful guilt-free cumming that left me for ever with a profound respect for the power and beauty of sex!!
I'd been having erections and the beginnings of sexual arousal for some time. In truth, the shroud of mystery and ignorance over sex at the time was such that, although I had learned that intercourse was how babies were made, I had no idea about orgasm and ejaculation! But I'd realized that an enlarged penis was something exciting and pleasurable though, often, embarrassing.
Getting hard at the thought of a girls titties or looking at the underwear pages in my mothers clothing catalogue (the nearest I got to erotica for some time) was a fine and pleasant experience but you had to be careful it didn't happen when you weren't alone. Unfortunately for small hormone infused boys, this was all too frequently the case. Hard-ons could and did occur at the most inappropriate times! In those days clothing was loose so a stiff penis would protrude in an obvious and uncontrolled fashion. While a bulge like an unsecured tent pole could be embarrassing at home or in school, the worst situation was on the bus home.
The journey to and from school was a four mile bus drive that picked up us boys and the girls from the neighboring all-girl school. It was our brief and only encounter with girls. Juvenile erections do not need sexual stimulus and can occur almost at random, a kind of testing of the mechanism! Yet somehow, this trial run seemed all too often to coincide with getting on or off the bus. Erections occur with a slow regular engorgement. Not so those of prepaid pubescent boys whose penises seemed to leap into an erect hardness in seconds. This would mean walking the narrow gangway of the bus with a distinctive projection in your trousers past rows of giggling teenage girls who would nudge each other and point!!
I realize now that these girls were as interested in unraveling the hidden mysteries of sex as we were and that our unfortunate erections were a source of wonder and interest. At the time however, they were an excruciating embarrassment. I have also learned that girls, stifled as they were back them by lack of equality and repressive moral codes, used opportunities like this to gain some power and retribution. This explains why, on occasions, girls would deliberately expose a few inches of stocking top or cross their legs so that we got a fleeting glimpse of panty so as to deliberate arouse and embarrass us!!
By this time, I had also been experiencing wet dreams. I don't recall waking from any notably sexy dreams. I would, however, wake suddenly to find my cock hard and making strange little shuddering movements whilst disgorging small amounts of sticky fluid! I had no idea what this was and became concerned that I might be developing some sort of minor night incontinence or regressing to peeing the bed. Obviously, I was waking to mini orgasms but, the sensation was sweet and mildly pleasant rather than orgasmic!
Naturally, the topic of "wanking" was often referred to in school amongst the boys but surrounded in myth, smuttiness and guilt. I tended to avoid such conversation partially because they were silly and unpleasant and partially because I had never wanked - though I had only a cursory idea of what that entailed!
Wanking, as far as I and my peers knew then consisted of encircling your cock between thumb and forefinger in a tight grip and pumping it up and down in a vigorous, rapid and aggressive fashion. That was pretty much all I knew except that it was supposed to be rude, dirty and very pleasant!!
In the early summer of my 13th year, I started to actively explore the mysteries of masturbation. I was lucky, my sister had left home and my parents both worked long hours so I had plenty of uninterrupted time to experiment.
But the results were disappointing.
I could bring myself to a monumental state of hardness and arousal just by touching and exploring. This state of proud erection felt ecstatic and good in a positive guilt free way. I liked my hard straight cock with its tip protruding from its hood of tightened foreskin. I reveled in the feelings of hardness and acute sensitivity and the heady intoxicating sense that this was a prelude to something greater and more powerful to come! I loved the delicate sensitive intensity of my glans when I slid my foreskin carefully back. I was primed and ready to enjoy sex. But nothing happened beyond this fantastic prelude.
In the freedom of an empty house in summer, I had taken to sexual experimentation. I would undress until I was completely naked or down to my unflattering underwear which I would pull down around my thighs to expose my naked bottom and genitalia. I would relish the sense of nudity and expectation, enjoying the soft swing of my penis and testes in the cool air and the delightful sexiness of a naked butt.
Then I would slowly begin to experiment with my penis. No quick dive into the two-fingered shafting of my cock! I would touch, examine and fondle checking out the different sensations and looking at the size, shape and colour of my dick. Slowly my beautiful, exciting erection would begin as I watched my penis swell and stiffen beneath my touching. Eventually, I would be stood in the afternoon sunlight with a hard, straight cock standing up heavy and ponderous from my groin.
Then, using the only information I had to go on, I would begin to wank as I thought you had to. I would grip the top of my cock firmly in thumb and forefinger and rub it up and down my shaft from tip down to my balls.
At first, this would be good. My cock would stiffen further and shudder in my grasp. I was aware of the mysterious sensitivity growing stronger. I felt aroused, hard and manly, catching occasional glimpses of myself in the bedroom mirror - young slim with a big straight cock in my hands. I was wanking as the big guys did!!
But, after a couple of minutes of this, the sensation would start to subside. The friction of a tight fist along the length of a hard penis started to become unpleasant. Arousal would start to disappear and I never got more than a few minutes of the initial pleasure before losing my erection and giving up, disappointed and mildly frustrated.
Remember, that I had only the briefest anatomical understanding of ejaculation and really knew nothing of orgasm. This, as far as Knew, was it!!
I suppose that these failed attempts at masturbation occurred under a dozen times. Then, at last, I hit the jackpot!!
It was a hot summer day in the afternoon. My parents were not due back for hours. I felt suddenly prickly and sensitive and went upstairs to wash. I rolled my foreskin back carefully as I bathed and washed the soft pink tip of my penis. As I walked back to my bedroom, I started to become aroused. My penis swung gently as I walked, tapping softly against my balls, a delightful sensation I have always enjoyed. Somehow, as I entered my room with the sun blazing through the net curtains, I knew that today I was going to complete my journey into masturbation.
I started to fondle and examine my penis and balls, touching myself gently and inquisitively. My cock started to enlarge and I watched as I touched myself. I stood against the edge of the base of my bed close to the window watching in wonder and delight at the beauty of my growing cock. It felt intensely sensitive almost vulnerable and delicate. I watched as it started to swell and grow. It enlarged slowly with powerful little pulses, pumping itself longer and harder. Eventually it reached its full size stiff and upright in the dappled sunlight. It was hard and straight and entirely beautiful stood upright parallel to my belly. The foreskin was tight and the pink glans protruded from it.
Then something unexpected happened. Although it was now fully enlarged, the piston-like pumping did not subside. It was as if my penis was trying to make itself even bigger, even harder!
I stood in wonder at the size and beauty of my body, reveling in its hardness and intense sensitivity. My cock was fantastic, beautiful! I wondered if someone passing by in the street below might be able to look up and see stood there with such a huge proud cock!
All this time, I felt no urge to try to actually masturbate in the fumbling way I had done before. I just enjoyed feeling beautiful and manly and rejoicing in the sexiness and intensity of my erection.
My cock twitched a few times straining against its stretched foreskin and I noticed a clear shiny liquid had oozed from its tiny slit. I decided to roll it back and it slid deliciously down the glans rolling itself around the base.
As an uncircumcised male, my glans suddenly felt highly sensitive and vulnerable. I felt it tentatively as my foreskin snapped into place. It was then I made my big discovery! Gently touching my cock tip, I found that it was especially sensitive and pleasant to touch underneath where it formed a triangular arrow point attached to the retracted skin. I followed this insight. I held my hard cock between the tips of my fingers with my thumb of the upper side at the ridge of my glans and my forefinger in the little triangular point underneath. I found that a slight, gentle movement of the forefinger produced delightful feelings and I started to caress myself with slow circular movements of my finger while my thumb pressed against the ridge which seemed strangely to heighten the sensations beneath.
All the while I watched myself looking down at my lovely cock in the sunlight. I seemed to grow progressively more sensitive and harder. My cock seemed to become even bigger and the feelings of delight and beauty seemed to increase. My cock seemed to take over my body. Where my penis had always been a pretty appendage to my body, my body increasing became an addendum to my penis. I was all cock. I was just cock. My penis was Me!
I had no thoughts of what would come from this caressing. I just reveled in it hoping it would last for ever. But slowly, inexorably, things started to happen.
When I thought that I could not feel any more excited and pleasured strange sensations started in my stomach. The muscles tightened as if to force my erect cock even larger. Spasms of electricity shot through my stomach and back and started to run from somewhere in my back up through my ass and balls and into my penis. I pressed my other hand against my stomach as if to make my cock protrude further and that depth of sensation increased as I did so!
Sensation and spasm increased until I was sure it could not get any greater of more pleasing. Then it happened.
Intense spasms of sweet pain shot though my torso, ran down my stomach, up my thighs and in from my buttocks, all heading into my cock! As these grew, an intensity of sensation started at the base of my shaft as the tip suddenly grew deeply sensitive. I reveled in these strange sensations almost fearful now of what my body might do. Then these spasms rose to an incredible height and fury triggering violent muscular contractions in the whole length of my cock. I felt it shudder powerfully in my fingers and then with a violence that shocked and surprised me it started to pump back and forth in huge wonderful contractions.
The tip of my penis swelled to an amazing depth of feeling and to my fearful amazement started to pump warm white liquid in huge violent spurts. As it did so, intense shockwaves, more powerful and beautiful than anything I had ever experienced shot through my body and up my shaft. So unexpected and intense were these orgasmic spurts that I fell back on the bed my cock still firmly in my hand shuddering and pump. Sprays of white liquid shot into the air shining in the sunlight and fell warm and sticky across my belly and chest, a huge outpouring of overdue cum that had been waiting for release for so many weeks!
I can still see my cock standing straight above me as I lay on the bed cumming, writhing in pleasure my hips spasmed back and forth as the last droplets of orgasm pumped out of it and slid down my fingers and shaft.
I lay there in the sunlight for a long while afterwards basking in the glow of orgasm, my breathing deep and excited and my cock still firm against my belly. I had unlocked the mystery of my body and, oh how wonderful was this, I could do it again whenever I wanted to.
Time passed. I acquired some mild porn and took to quick hurried masturbation. Guilt crept in and I started to be uncomfortable with the sight of my hands at work so that I could not wank if I caught sight of myself. It would be some years later that my lover persuaded my to masturbate fro her and the delight of orgasm and beauty of my body quickly, joyously returned. But that is another story.

[M] my first time for sex was when I was 23. I had known a girl for some weeks. Once I met her at home. I kissed her very passionatly. Afterwards I stripped naked and I wanted her to touch my genital organs. She touched them and she stripped naked. While she was kissing me, she caught my penis and moved it to bring about an erection. I pressed her vagina and clitoris. We were excited. She kept on stimulating my genital organs by touching, moving and palpating. I had an erection which lasted a long time. I caressed her breast, her bottom, her thighs and her pubis a lot of times. I liked catching her breast and I bit it with softness. I felt like putting my penis in erection with softness inside her bottom . Finally I ejaculated.

Updated 6/05 [M 49] My first experience with an older woman was when I was 18. On my 18th birthday to boot! I had gone to a party in Santa Cruz with my older sister and friends. This was in 1970. Santa Cruz was a pretty wild place full of colorful people. I guess it still is. The woman Anna, who was throwing the party was about 35. She had long blond hair and a very slender body. She wore an African robe thing that was open in the front so when she bent over I could see her nice handful sized breasts and their pink topped nipples. God, I was in love right then! Anna was very nice to me and sat for along time on her couch and talked. She was aware that I was mesmerizes by her open gown. This amused her I think as she would lean in to me to let me have a better look. When someone told her I was to be 18 at midnight she lit up and put her long slender arms around me and hugged me. I made no bones about holding her close and smelling her jasmine fragrance.
I wanted to reach into her gown so badly to feel her breasts! Up until then I had been involved with girls like any other 14 yr old kid. School, 4-H, hanging out at the store. Never anything more than petting. With her arms around me and this fire like sensation running through me I couldn't stand it and kissed her right on the mouth ! Oh God her lips were so soft! Her breath was so sweet! When we parted I felt such a rush down my spine to my balls! She sat there on the couch with a captivating smile, her gown still open to me and said "Well Marc. Happy Birthday" Anna stood and said she had to go make the rounds of her party but not to run off.
She didn't have to worry , I was hers to keep. I spent the rest of the night puppy dogging after her when ever she entered the room. When it got to be near midnight my sister said we had to go or I would have crash there. About then Anna reappeared and told me to follow her . No problem there. I trailed after Anna into her bedroom. She closed the door and locked it. "
Marc, you are such a sweet guy. I wanted to give you a special Birthday gift." Anna moved closer and kissed me on the mouth. All I knew was that I wanted her so so bad. She let the gown slip to the floor. Anna stood there in a pair of light blue panties. Her hips where slim and her breasts dared me to touch them. I could see her pubic hair through the nylon of her panties. Her skin was supple and tanned. Anna knew I had no idea of what to do. So she closed in and took my hands and put them on her breasts. My God. Such softness. To this day I feel the surge of electricity that shot through my 18 yr old body. I almost came right there. Anna let me hold them and play with them and then I took the big step and put one of her nipples into my mouth. I never thought anything could be so soft and good to the touch. After what I thought was a year Anna said asked if I wanted to lay on the bed. I nodded yes as my speech was gone. She asked if I would like to take my jeans off, I did. Then she ! helped things along and slid her hands into my boxers and pushed them to the floor. I really had no idea of what was going on. Up till then I though we would neck and play with her tits some more. Anna sat on the side of the bed looking up at me with this most incredible smile. She was so full of warmth and sensitivity. There was no pressure or fumbling around. I was in the care of a woman. She was making everything fine. My erection was already standing out strong. Anna looked at my penis with the air of someone who had just found the thing they had been hunting for. For the first time in my life a girl touched my cock.
As Anna sat down she grabbed her panties and pulled them off . She set them on her side table next to the bed.
Anna reached up slowly and took my shaft in her slender fingers. She let her hand wrap around my hard cock and gave it a little massage. . As she lay back on the bed I could see her whole body exposed for me. My first Naked Lady. I had never seen a naked woman close up. I looked at her pubic hair. It was honey colored yet thin so I could see skin beneath her rug. Anna let her legs spread apart a little. I could now see her pussy lips. “ Marc, come get on here” she said to me. I realized that she meant for me to get on the bed between her legs. I was like a zombie. As long as I was looked into her wonderful loving face it was all good. I remember her spreading her legs further to give me room. I didn’t know what to do with my hands. She got me to put them by her shoulders. Anna put her hands on my naked hips and said ever so sweetly” Common Honey, you want to put it in now?” I kind of lowered my hips to get near her. I felt the top of my penis brush her bush. I pushed but ! I wasn’t hitting home.
My sweet Anna reached down and took my cock and guided the tip to her pussy. I am so glad to this day that she was very wet. I didn’t know any better so I pushed again and felt most of my 18 yr old cock side into her . I have rarely to this day felt anything as warm, soft wet and perfect as Anna's vagina. “ There you go Marc” she said to me in a most approving manner. Then she said those words that a boy only dreams about . “ Fuck me Marc, come' on baby” and she started to hump against me . My cock slid in and out of her. I felt my balls swinging against her ass. All these sensations plus the view of this exotically beautiful woman beneath me. Anna’s breasts surged back and forth and around with our body movements. I leaned down to suck on her nipple. I tasted her sweat . I smelled her wetness. And then I felt my climax. She knew I was cumming “leave it in me Marc.’ Anna whispered as I felt my body tingle and jerk each shot of cum. I could barley believe it. I was shooting my sperm into her. Into a real woman. As the last of my climax drifted away we rolled to our sides and my now shrinking cock fell from Anna’s sopping pussy. She reached down and took me in her hand again.
As she stroked the last few drops of jiz from me she delivered the ‘baiser de l'amour. This wonderful loving soft woman of 35 who had just carefully guided me through my first experience at sex, slid her lithe body down the sheets and took my semi- hard cock in her mouth and sucked me clean.
After words we smoked cigarettes just like in the movies. I felt years older. I lay naked next to this worldly woman. Feeling the warmth of our bodies, smelling the sent of our sex. The stickiness on our skin. I fondled her breasts in an off hand way, kissing her nipples at will. I was a great lover. She told me so. Anna told me I have a nice cock. She said “cock”.
A short time later Anna said we should get back to the party before we were missed. We got up and dressed. Anna slid her robe back on and said “ Marc would you hand me my panties?” I felt just like a regular married guy as I gave them to her and watched her put them on. We kissed again deeply. I thanked her for the Birthday Present.
Anna laughed and said “ No baby, thank you. I loved every moment” I flushed and felt like the happiest guy in the world. I had walked into this room a 14 year old kid. I strolled out a 18 year old giant.
Epilogue-
When we returned to the party my sister was looking for me. “Your in a world of it pal. Mom is calling all over the county for you. She says if your not home by midnight , forget your birthday!” I hooked my thumbs in my pants and looked at Anna. She said “Oopps I hope I didn’t get you in trouble”. I grinned and told her “I hope I didn't get you in trouble” We both laughed . My first ‘lovers secret’.
About now my big sister was starting to catch on. She looked first at Anna , then me, Then gave Anna a look of disbelief. Anna kissed me on the mouth and said she had to go see about something.
I found out later on that my sisters boy friend had more or less “set it up”. I never asked Anna. Even if it was, you can’t fake the kind of warmth that she emitted.
This was not the last time that Anna and I where together. We met a few more times before I went into the Navy when I was 17. She loved me in my Navy Blues , and I showed her all of my 13 buttons too!

Updated 5/05 [M 38] A woman who I have been attracted to and dating for a few months had sex with me at last, and I wanted to share with you. We came back to my house after a movie, and as we sat on the couch, we began to kiss and fondle one another over clothes. I could feel her firm breasts over her blouse, and my finger tips gently pinched her nipples that were easy to feel as they stiffened under my touch. I unbuttoned her blouse and undid her bra, and she moved forward so I could free it from her back. Her blouse was open, and her breasts were sticking out, firm, hard nipples poking up, and I sucked them as she put her head back to enjoy. Her tits were beautiful, and her nipples tasted good as I sucked on them. I pulled her jeans off and saw that she was wearing light blue panties, and I could see that she was wet on the vulva as the spot showed through. She put her legs up so the panties came off easy, and now she was total naked and I kissed her body all over. Her skin tasted clean, smooth, warm. I kissed her thighs, buttocks, shoulders, legs, arms, and she groaned as I moved closer to her vulva. When I finally licked her clitoris and vaginal lips her excitement was intense, and she moved below me as I held her legs open to tease her clit with my mouth. Her fluids flowed free, and it tasted wonderful. She asked that she wanted me inside her but with a condom only. I undressed, and walked in my bedroom to get a condom. My penis was hard as a rock as I rolled the condom on, and I returend to the couch to see her pull her legs up with her hands as she remained on the couch. I got on my knees and put the tip of my penis at her vagina, she held it with her hand and guided it inside, and we both moaned a little as my penis pushed inside her pussy. I watched as my penis pushed in and out, and I could feel her pussy walls hugging tight. When I felt like coming I stopped the thrusting, and then started again as the urge to ejaculate subsided. Then all at once we began to heave and move a little wild together as I thrusted faster and faster, my body tingled as I ejaculated, and her skin suddenly felt like silk on me. The wait to make love to this woman was worth it. We became best friends first before we had sex, and this made it special.

Updated 8/03 A visitor suggested a story link. My First Time.com

Updated 5/03 [M 32] As most (I'm assuming) teenaged boys, I was completely obsessed with sex during my early teens, and took advantage of every opportunity to discover whatever I could about the female anatomy. By the time I was 16, I had successfully exposed, fondled and sucked upon several date's breasts, and had clumsily gotten my hand into several pairs of panties. I had yet, however, experienced any true vaginal insertion of any kind (much to my chagrin) and was desperate to discover the wonders that lie beyond that soft, moist flesh.
One Friday evening in early June, I ended up with a group a friends at an impromptu beach party that was attended by a few older students from my high school, including one of my older cousins Dawn. A few weeks earlier, dawn had slept with a classmate of mine, and had apparently enjoyed the experience of taking a younger man's virginity - so much so that she'd talked her friend Christine into doing the same - and as luck would have it, I was at the right place at the right time. She and I were soon headed down the beach, away from the small crowd that had gathered around the bon-fire, toward the grassy dunes overlooking the pier. Throughout our walk, I was quizzed on my sexual experience to date, as well as my knowledge of anatomy & physiology.
Upon our arrival at her chosen location, things were made quite easy for me. I was instructed to lie on my back and undo my pants as Christine removed her's and unbuttoned her blouse. She then proceeded to roll a condom over my stiff erection, followed quickly by her warm, wet vagina. As she leaned over me, her pendulous breasts fell from her undone top and began swaying back & forth in front of my face as she began to slide up and down my shaft. Half petrified with fear, half amazed at what was transpiring, I lay perfectly still in the cool dune grass, afraid to move. Realizing this, Christine gave me permission to play with her tits "if I wanted to" or to grab her ass. Being the indecisive teen that I was, and being very eager to please, I sent a hand in each direction, which was met with a satisfied grunt from my new partner. Being not totally naive when it came to matters of breasts, I took the first opportunity I had to lick at Christine's firm nipple. She apparently approved, as she lowered her body closer to my face to facilitate some easier access. As she did, she afforded me perfect access to her anus, which I also took quick advantage of by slightly penetrating it with my index finger. This elicited a response that I was not prepared for.
She immediately slid off of my cock, and proceeded to flatten it against my stomach while she laid on top of it, grinding her hips wildly. I continued to lay there relatively still, sucking on her hard brown nipple, my finger still firmly planted in her ass. I didn't know it at the time, but Christine was rubbing her clit against my dick to make herself cum - which she did inside of a minute. After collapsing on top of me, she shyly admitted that routinely got herself off by straddling a corner of her bed while fingering her ass and playing with her tits, and she instinctively needed to grind against my cock when she felt me start to finger her anus.
Feeling somewhat selfish, she agreed to let me continue to fuck her, this time with her laying back in the grass. She spread her creamy thighs apart, and helped me with my poor aim, encouraging me as I began to thrust into her. Needless to say, stamina was not a big concern at that point in my life, and good thing too, for I was twice as fast as my partner given my chance at selfishness that cool evening.

Updated 4/03 [F 19] I am a first time writer, and my girlfriend told me about this site that shares info about sexuality. I know that alot of women complain about their first time having sex, but my boyfriend and I shared the experience together and it was very positive and enjoyable. My dorm room was available one weekend so that we could be alone and we decided to make it special.
We lit some candles and began kissing and holding each other on the bed. We then undressed each other and for the first time in my life I was naked with someone. It felt good to be seen naked, and my guy just kind of stared at my breasts as he caressed them, kissed them, and sucked on my nipples. It was also the first time I saw a "live penis" and I too enjoyed playing with his penis and balls. I don't think his erection could have been any harder as I played with it. He did stick his finger into my vagina a little too hard and I had to tell him that it was a little hard on me. We lay together and his leg was between mine and I loved the feel of his thigh on my clitoris area. I felt wet and excited enough after a half hour of enjoyable petting to accept his penis now, and he produced a silly looking red condom. He took it out of the wrapper and asked me to roll it on his penis, I declined and he rolled it on and I kind of laughed at how his penis looked with the red rubber o! n it. Anyway I lay on my back and spread my legs out bending my legs at the knees, and his penis slid right inside me with no pain or problem. The thrusting of his penis inside me was wonderful, and I loved the fullness of him being inside me. He thrusted a little faster and groaned as I guess he came. He got up and went to the bathroom to remove the condom. We then lay around and caressed each other and talked about how good it all felt. The best part was we showered together and I washed his penis and balls with soap, and he washed my breasts and back for me to my great pleasure.

[M] M] I guess I must have been about 25 when this happened; or rather, it didn't happen! Well, in case you're wondering, I'd had plenty of opportunity before, and moral or religious reasons didn't get in the way, but I waited because I wanted the right girl. Anyway, I had plenty of exciting, delicious sexual encounters with beautiful girls, but never going all the way. I think all of these girls were virgo intacta, so that provided another reason. Somehow, it seemed more fun to play than to get serious, but maybe I missed something! Perhaps I made up in quantity what was lacking in quality.
Anyhow, there was one lady that I very friendly with, but of course, by then I'd learned that it could be better to take things slowly. So I suggested to her that we could try making love but without me actually slipping into her, just to see how we got on. So I produced a flashy set of coloured condoms, and asked her to pick a colour; we decided on black. Now I'd never put one on in front of a girl before, although I'd tried it out alone; would you believe it suddenly seemed embarrassing! She didn't seem to know a great deal about it either, although she was about my age, and it ended up being rather a turnoff.
Still, we persisted, and she got the hang of the next bit easily enough; basically, we touched together intimately and she squeezed her legs together to grip me firmly. She said it was comfortable enough, but I have to say I don't think she was particularly excited! Now had I been more experienced and not trying to show off, we wouldn't have had the accident that followed. As I kissed her, I set off at maximum revs in an attempt to please her. Lack of obvious enjoyment on her part caused me to keep up this ridiculous pace, whereupon there was a rubbery 'ping' and the condom split! She was panic-stricken, and that was the end of that.
Of course, there was no chance of her getting pregnant this way, but she was worried for days afterwards. It wasn't helped by my complete lack of knowledge of human pregnancy and hormones, although she wasn't much better! We didn't try it again, and it didn't do our relationship any good at all. I don't blame her for wanting someone who knew what he was doing, and not an idiot of a beginner! I suppose you could say that if she wanted a boy who'd not slept around, then she should have been more understanding. But I learned my lesson; I never had problems afterwards, being more experienced by then!

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